Wow seriously

I am so tired tonight and am waiting for my hubby to come home from a youth trip  I wish I could have gone on that I finally have been catching up on the blogs I read used to read regularly when I realized that it has been over a year since my last post.  Could it be because Joshua’s baby sister was born January 5, 2009 and we also acquired (another long story) a teenager 3 months later?  Hmm I wonder.  Last year was a busy year for our household and things haven’t slowed down much since then.  We have been so blessed by the addition of both girls but they do come with their challenges too.  Lately Joshua’s absence has been weighing on me.  Probably because we are coming up on his 3rd b-day …could that possibly be right? why yes it is.  I don’t know if this year is harder than last because last year I was just so busy I didn’t have as much time to think about it or if somehow there is a new reality that for the rest of my earthly life I will celebrate his birthday without him, I will never get to get to buy him gifts or watch him blow out candles.  He is not here.  I am thinking about wishing him a “happy heaven day” since he is not here to celebrate his b-day…don’t know, we’ll see.  To those who still check occasionally thanks for visiting.  To those who are new visitors, I’ve also started a group on facebook called “families of children with Limb-Bodywall Complex” …please feel free to join us there as well.